Be like Einstein.

Thomas (my boyfriend) gave me a little lecture last night. I’ve been beating myself up by telling myself how much I do not know about programming. Whenever he asks me to work on a programming project with him, I would tell him I’m not ready because I don’t have a solid foundation yet.

He said a bunch of stuff that made a lot of sense then he quoted Einstein:

Never memorise something that you can look up.

I am so motivated that I’ve been studying the books like bibles so I would somehow start hating myself whenever I have to go back to the previous chapters to look for a particular code that, for the life of me, I just can’t remember! I had that mindset that if I couldn’t code without referring back to what I already learned then I didn’t understand the concept.

What. The. Actual. Fuck.

I. Suck.

Why. Am. I. So. Bad. At. This.

All the negative thoughts would start running through my head. Apparently, that isn’t the case. I am not terribly bad at this. If I knew where to find the answer, it meant that I knew what I was looking for which then meant that I knew how to solve the problem because I understood the concept (phew! And yay!).

I need to of course, get better at knowing where to look for the appropriate materials so as to save me time researching then it frees my mind from having to memorise everything I could easily look up.

Thomas (he is so intelligent and has been incredibly patient with me. I can’t believe I’m so lucky to call him mine! He reads my blog sometimes so, hi baby!) reminded me that I’m the only one who can block my own road to success right now and the only way to build my foundation is to work on a little project and start coding even when I don’t think I know enough.

This fear and reluctance in me isn’t getting me anywhere.

Be like Einstein.